So I had just gotten off a call last night....
The kind of call that really connects you to a person and lets you see that you're not alone in this world when it comes to your mission. The mission of soul recovery. It's good to know there are others out there on this same mission and that we're spreading this kind of healing like WILDFIRE.
After my call last night, I just sat there. Basking in the afterglow of a good connection and just thought of my work and the people I connect to daily and the impact I've been given a chance to make here on this globe.
The first two months of the year were rough. I won't lie, they were shitty as fuck. But last night, it was as if the angels were all around me, touching me on the shoulder and giving me a brand new perspective. I just thought to myself...wow...everyone says I HAVE TO be messed up after this break up. That I won't be able to recover for awhile.
Why does it have to be that way?
Why can't I choose to be happy instead?
Why can't I choose to get over it now?
Why can't I choose to live my life beyond it?
Why must i drag it on? I was miserable for awhile and now that I'm free of that, I'm supposed to be MORE miserable? As part of my healing process? Because its acceptable to be? No, actually, truly healing for ME personally would be to rebel against the misery and let myself be HAPPY.
I made myself miserable for someone for years.
I made myself miserable for others for so long.
I put my joy on the back burner MANY times.
So no, continuing to be miserable and treading through the murky waters of this heartbreak would not be good for me. And i refuse to conform to it because that's what is acceptable. What you focus on grows. I am no longer going to grow anything in that relationship, so why focus on it? Why not focus on the relationship I grow with myself?
Yeah, I like that.
If you're struggling with a breakup, heartbreak or the loss of a lover or friend, I'm telling you this. The bravest and most healing thing you can do is BE HAPPY. You are not supposed to be anything other than what is natural for you. Sure you're going to have your moments where all you want to do is cry or scream or fuck shit up. But why drag it out? Why expect it daily? Let it happen when it happens, but other than that...go LIVE babe. Be happy.
Dare to discover who you are beyond the pain. That's the point. That's the primary objective. Is remembering that you are NOT your circumstances. You are NOT your emotions. You are who you choose to be. You are not a slave to circumstance or opinion. You are a free spirit.
Run wild, child.
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